I wrote this poem a few days after my father died. I was in the marine life wing of the Natural History Museum in New York City — looking up at the gigantic blue whale and recalling all the wonderful times that he and I shared on the ocean — when the reality of his death truly hit me.
Beneath The Whale
let me sink to the bottom of the sea and stare at the underside of waves
where I can see the wind but neither hear nor feel it
salty solemnity haunt me please
dissolve my anger
let me rest on a cushion of silt as I remember that you taught me how to fish
and dispersed Room Noodles from your fingers to ward off the nameless things that lurked in the dark
and made me say boy oh boy am I enthusiastic every morning before my socks were wet with dew
I can catch a lobster
dock a boat
and tie several knots
I owe you that
I am 10 years old I swim down down to the sea floor
you take my hand and squeeze it squeeze it like you’re trying to kill a small animal
you give me your regulator and I breathe your air
we are weightless
you are calm and peaceful when your air runs out on the bottom of the sea or propped up in bed with the TV remote in your hand
After watching all the entries multiple times and discussing them with our crew and committee, we’ve finally made a decision.
It wasn’t easy! Almost every entry was compelling, but ultimately we had to choose the group based on our gut instinct after much thought and prayer.
So, we chose seven young people to come on the trip to Medjugorje and be part of our second upcoming film, Cross Mountain. See them here:
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JOIN US IN MEDJUGORJE
Also, join the cast and crew of Cross Mountain on a unique pilgrimage to the Medjugorje Youth Fest in August! You’ll be part of the film and get to experience Medjugorje in a truly unique way. Learn more.
This summer, we’re bringing a group of people to investigate Medjugorje as part of our upcoming film Apparition Hill. People were invited to enter the contest for a chance to win one of five free trips to Medjugorje, and you can follow that journey here.
We were so overwhelmed by the heartfelt stories in the entries for Apparition Hill that we decided to bring a second group, but this time with a different mission: to take part in Medjugorje’s Youth Fest.
Every year, during the first week of August, young people from all over the world converge on the tiny village of Medjugorje in Bosnia-Herzegovina.
Why do they come? And what are they looking for? Our crew hopes to find out by bringing a group of young people to investigate.
So, just like the last contest, we’re giving away five all-expenses-paid trips to Medjugorje. If you’re between 18 and 30 years old and you have never been to Medjugorje before, please submit a video entry.Visit the Cross Mountain website to learn more.